I am excited about the weekend, I just am!! It could be that I don’t have much planned, or it could be the fact I am catching up with a big group of 10 fitchicks on Sunday for breakfast. It started out small, but just snowballed!! I think we’re going to take over the restaurant, but who cares!! The more the merrier!!
I have been meaning to set something up like this for ages and have kept promising girls that I would organise something after comp. Well it’s after comp alright… nearly a month!! But that is usually about how long it takes for everything to settle down, especially after the Nationals!!
There’s been some news as to where the All Female professional shots went… they went missing before they could be sent. So they are working on sending out another copy. Not that I am sure I will be posting many of this comp as I was really disappointed with my condition. But I might end up posting some alongside the professional shots for the Nationals when I get those to compare and so everyone can see what a difference just 3 months makes.
Training is going well and I am loving the new program from coach. It’s a different split to what I am normally put through, so I am definitely loving the challenge!!
Within myself, well it’s kind of hard to put a finger on what is happening on the inside of me lately. It’s quite strange. The closest I can come to describing the evolution is that my sport is becoming more spiritual than just a sport.
I find myself not looking at other competitors as my competition, but more my partners in improving myself. I’m taking pleasure in the process and enjoying everything to do with it, including the cardio. I enjoy emptying my mind when I get to the gym and just being in the moment, where it’s just me and the weight, focusing on the technique and the muscles that are working. It’s going on a run, not because I have to, but because I enjoy the feeling of my feet travelling over the pavement, my steady breathing, and getting into the zone where I feel so fit that I can run for miles.
I’m feeling very introspective at the moment and that goes a little way to explaining my sporadic blogging lately. It’s like what is happening within my head and heart is too hard to put into words, and even if I could I am not sure I would want to share just yet. It’s an extremely personal journey I have embarked upon, so I find myself keeping my cards close to my chest as I am not sure I could do what is happening any justice by writing about it. Being such a personal journey I don’t know if it would make sense to other people anyway. About the only person it makes sense to is my Coach, with whom I have had quite a few philosophical discussions with lately as he really understands this kind of eastern style of thinking and training, and in fact he has really been able to clear up and clarify a few things for me. If it starts making sense for me, I will start sharing it just as long as I think I will be able to explain it properly!!
I feel like I am on the edge of a cliff and a change is brewing in the clouds on the horizon. It feels like a a storm, but one of those delicious storms where it’s hot and humid and the combination of the warm wind and cool rain is exhilarating. Like standing there feeling electrified and part of the storm, at one with nature as your hair whips around your head. This next 12 months feels like it is going to bring a whole lot of changes with it and I am calm yet excited about facing them. I feel there is a deeper meaning to competing, that it’s not just about the comp day. It’s more sacrosanct than that. Like I said, it’s hard to explain it, so I think it’s time I stopped trying!!
Until next time, train hard and eat well, and ‘aveagoodweekend!!
Love Rae xxx
“Be soft in your practice. Think of the method as a fine silvery stream, not a raging waterfall. Follow the stream, have faith in its course. It will go its own way, meandering here, trickling there. It will find the grooves, the cracks, the crevices. Just follow it. Never let it out of your sight. It will take you.”
~Sheng-yen.
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It sure is Frankie and I’ll try and be more coherent about it as soon as I work out what it all means… LOL!! Can’t wait to finally meet you on Sunday also… it’s going to be awesome!! xxx
that’s what blogs are for – getting it out there – i like to treat my blog as a brain fart or somewhere i can dump thoughts. I dont care if i sound weird, happy, sad, extreme etc..it’s my blog, it’s my thoughts and if i can reach out to just ONE person, it makes me happy….
I feel kinda the same – there is an essence of change in the air and my surrounds, but ALL for GOOD……I’m blessed to have a few special people in my life who are with me all the way – how lucky!!! xxoo
PS: OMG the choc mint is divine….hmmm thinking the iced coffee will be a hit!!
NEXT GENERATION FAN HERE!!! xxoo
I know you might feel dissapointed about something, but you have no reason to feel dissapointed. Whatever happens, you are a wonderful athlete, a wonderful rolemodel and a beautiful healthy Lady.
I know certain things are a little difficult to make sense of right now, but the main thing is, that you take your time to get your head around things and deal with things in your own way, because it’s important for you to feel at one with yourself.
Whenever you’re ready to talk, that’s perfectly okay.
BIG HUGS and no worries okay.
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Matt
Knew you would love the choc mint, and I’ll be getting some iced coffee in the next order just to try some!! When I do I’ll send a sample over to you xxx
That is so true Fernie… it’s my blog and I’ll cry if I want to… LOL!! Besides, it’s always good to read back over entries from years gone by to see what was going on in your life and how you felt about things. So it’s always best to be honest and write things down the way they were!!
Hi Matt, I’m not disappointed at all. I’m actually very excited because I love it when there is a feeling of change in the air. I think that this is what makes life interesting and worth living. It’s more a slight sense of frustration that I cannot verbalise what is going on. But that is OK, maybe it is something I am not meant to be able to put into words and it is something I am just meant to feel and go with. Big hugs back xxx
If needs be, just feel it with your amazing Heart, and maybe it will be the way to translate what it means.
Not with words, or with thoughts, but with emotional touch, feeling the way it is, understanding how what you feel actaully means in emotional terms.
Maybe that is the way forward .
Beautiful Post Rae. You are a special person to so many.
xx
Thank you sweetheart, what a lovely comment to receive upon waking. You’ve made it a great start to the day
Hi Sweetheart, Sounds like you are on a beautiful journey. God will continue to make your life so gorgeous, even more beautiful than it already is. Remember to trust him when you go through hard times and he will guide you. Love you lots, J xxx
Thanks babe… I really needed to hear this today, so thanks for getting the message through 
Love you back xxx
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Sounds like some interesting stuff going on in your head Rae. I look forward to more posts about it.
Meanwhile..yay! Can’t wait for Sunday!