It has been quite a while since I posted! I don’t think in the whole time I have been blogging I have ever gone nearly a month without an update. What can I say? Work has been flat out and so has life.
In the past month I have been working full steam on a very tightly resource and time constrained project that has resulted in working a lot of overtime. Along with that, a stuff up with my internet connection request has meant waiting for exactly 2 months and 2 days to have this connected. I can only hope this is not going to be an indication of the service I am going to receive the rest of the contract, but as with all internet service providers I will not be holding my breath. So hopefully once this is set up next Monday, I will be blogging a bit more regularly. In hindsight I wish I had just told them not to bother and gone with someone else. But each time I was reassured it would only be a few more days, hopefully next week, etc. and before you know it two months has gone by and you are still waiting! One of the first things on the agenda will be to give my blog a fresh new look.
In the past week I lost one of my favourite people, my cheeky Uncle Jim. He used to torment us when we were little by chasing us around and tickling us until we begged for mercy. We would run away like the devil himself was after us, but always within a few minutes would be sidling back up to him, taunting him with “You can’t get me Uncle Jim!!” and then running away from him screaming at the top of our lungs. This loss has hit me hard as I am very close to my family, and I spent the first two days after hearing the sad news curled up on the couch and not wanting to face the world. My boss said that he has been amazed at how close our family is and that he hasn’t met many Australian families with the bond that is as strong as ours (he is from Sri Lanka), which is something he has picked up just through the way I speak about them. I cannot begin to tell you how much my heart broke to see my Aunty so consumed with grief and sorrow at times during the funeral yesterday. But as always with our family, when we bury someone we love, always amongst the tears is so many bouts of laughter over memories and good times shared. It did my heart good to see my Aunty laughing right along with us.
I don’t see my cousins as often as I like, but because of the bond formed and strengthened in our childhood when spending so much time together on school holidays, we always pick up where we left off. I am extremely proud and thankful of our family and how we pull together when a tragedy hits. The morning after my mum passed away, without warning they all descended on our place first thing armed with food and bags and loads of hugs and kisses to help us get through. My heart is so full of love and gratitude for these people and I really do feel truly blessed to have grown up with them and to have them in my life. While losing someone you love is sorrowful, it still is a time that opens your eyes to the blessings in your life and what is important.
On that note, I am looking forward to a visit in 15 days by one of my favourite people, Miss Katie! Cannot wait for her to get here and hang. She was flying over to support me in my comp, but as I pulled out she won’t be watching me compete any more. Katie made the decision that she was going to come over anyway whether I was competing or not and I am so glad she is. She will be my first adult guest in the new house!!
Anyway people, I hope you have a great one and I won’t leave it so long for an update in the future!
Love Rae xxx
When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses. ~Joyce Brothers
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Rae; your Uncle would have been so proud of you, but also he left a small positive imprint on you, I think that is obvious through your words and his memories and the way he helped to shape you as a person, will mean he has not left you.
There will always be a small part of him within you and through his impact and memories, he will live on through you. Leaving a legacy that ensures his life will not fade, but be carried on through people like you and his impact can be passed on to others by your own words and deeds, so he in a small way can live on through them, by them following your example of how to be.
His essence and ethos will continue to be viral and positvely affect others, because you will pass it on to others with your attitude, so they can learn a little something about him through you, without you having to tell them anything.
You’re helping to give him a great afterlife, simply by being you, just like you have for your parents.
It’s one of the many reasons why you are such an incredibly beautiful person and somebody who always succeeds in touching those around them including me.
How can someone around 13,000 miles away, feel so close and so warm and emotionally tactile so often?
I guess that’s just the amazing way in which you can reach out and effortlessly touch people, but in part, you do that through those who helped you be who you are now.
I know your departed were good people because of you and I know enough through your actions. You keep on giving warmth and emotion so effortlessly and naturally and you keep giving a little part of those passed on as well.
Your Uncle would have been proud of you there is no doubt and proud to have made his mark on you. You would have made him happy and reassured him about how he lived his life and that he didn’t waste it, because he would have known he had used some of his time well, to help you develop into the person you are now.
WELL DONE Rae for always letting those departed, have another platform for their actions and another chance to go on living through those actions and also your words.
They can still be here thanks to you and the way you treat others and I’m so, so proud of you, for how you let them continue to have their time, especially for how you fought for them for months, to protect them and their wishes.
Your courage was beautiful to last and you got everything you deserved for you, your younger sister and your departed relatives.
You are someone that can possibly make an atheist like me believe in angels 
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THANKS as always for your humbling and kind words. As ever my unconditional support and friendship are yours for a lifetime.
Keep on doing what is best for you and keep on giving those you have lost, that outlet to live on, because your warmth, sunshine and immense inner beauty, make that possible and you can be proud now more than ever, of the way you continue to seemlessly honour the departed, day by day.
I’m sending BIG, BIG HUGS and very WARM WISHES at this eventful time. If you need to talk, moan or just pour your heart out, contact me by e-mail or FB and don’t spare a single word if you have to.
I feel your emotion and I totally get how you feel about someone close to your heart and I can tell you have coped brilliantly with this and you really are an example to us all.
Yours with massive respect.
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Matt
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Oh Rae, so sorry for your loss hun xox